Scary things..

So yesterday I had my routine doctors apt to check on me and the baby. When I got there everything went as normal until my nurse came in and told me I have an incompetent cervix. That basically means that my cervix is short and weak and I am more likely to have a 2nd or 3rd term miscarriage or have a very preterm baby. Its when your cervix opens because of the weight of the baby.

Let me just tell you this already has been pretty hard on me. I have read stuff online, and let me just say, there is nothing good that came out of that. It scared me to read everything. My motherly instincts are already kicking into gear because I want to protect Brody from everything I can, but this isnt something I can prevent. I am just hoping that everything works out ok for me and I can carry my baby at least into the 8th month...

My doctor checked my cervix yesterday, and as of now, it isnt open at all. Everyone that reads this please just keep me and Brody in your thoughts...

Ultrasound Wednesday.

So I have my first ultrasound of the pregnancy this Wednesday, June 15th. I will also be 19 wks pregnant that day as well. Needless to say I am super nervous because I keep thinking about there being something wrong with the baby.  I think I might read too much stuff online!! haha! I know there is a very slim chance that anything will be wrong, but I can't help but worry.

I am going to find out the sex of the baby. My dad is hoping for a boy because they are easier to deal with. Im torn. I dont want a diva girl, I was never like that when I was a kid! I was a tom boy. Loved sports, so hopefully if I am having a girl she will be like me! :)

This pregnancy thus far has been rough for me as I lost my job not long after I told everyone at work I was pregnant. Thank goodness I am now recieving unemployment and I am on medicaid as well so that is a huge help!

Well this is where I will keep everyone updated on whats going on through my pregnancy! Thanks for reading! :)